So, I'm graduating soon, and I still have absolutely no idea what I'm doing with my life. I'm single, and poor, and working a shitty minimum-wage job that I hate, and my roommate's dog has pretty much destroyed all hope of me getting my deposit back on this place, and I'm getting off subject...

I just keep waiting for that light bulb to go off, you know, that says, "This is it! This is what you're supposed to do, this is the place you should be, and this is what will ultimately make you happy!" But, I am graduating college in December, and I still have no clue. It's all so very stressful. And my mom keeps pushing me to move back down with her and go to grad school there. I think I'd rather poke myself in the eye all day.

Is there some secret that I'm missing? I thought graduates were supposed to be lining up careers and being all uber-responsible and adult-like. I'm am doing none of these things, and I feel like I'm missing the responsible-graduate-boat, you know? I don't want to be stuck in a shitty job (like my roommate) because I missed some opportunity now. *sigh* I'm stressing too much, I think. Maybe I'll feel better in the morning.

By the way, December 15th at 10AM. That's when I graduate - I expect you all to be there! :)

I am officially having the WORST WEEK EVER! And so far, this has been the only thing to cheer me up, even if only for a few minutes.

Instructions
1. Go to www.youtube.com.
2. Search for RoyZimmerman.
3. Watch ALL of his videos.
4. Laugh till you cry!

Seriously, he's HILARIOUS! He has one that I think you Garrats will find especially amusing called "What if the Beatles were Irish?" My favorie is "Creation Science 101."

Come see the Vagina Monologues tonight at 7:30pm in MMTH!

I stayed up late, late, late making vagina cookies to be sold for charity, so come out, buy a cookie, watch the show, and leave a better person! :)

See you there!

First things first, I had the greatest weekend ever. :) I mean ever. And, in a couple of weeks, I'll have another awesome weekend. Driving to Richmond every other weekend doesn't suck as bad as it used to. :)

Secondly, somehow I weaseled my way out of working on Superbowl Sunday, and that is awesome! I didn't have to deliver pizzas to drunk football fans and I didn't have to serve them beer either! Instead, I got to sit in Richmond watching something that was NOT football and then look up the commercials later. Have you seen the Rock, Paper, Bud Light one? Absolutely hilarious!

And lastly, this must be my lucky week because my first class today (Bio-statistics *shudders*) was CANCELLED today!!! YAY! Which means I have from now until 2:20 to read for Feminist Theory and I have until Thursday to complete the assignment that was due today in Bio-stats. haha! I'm so happy!

Holy freakin' crap. A friend of my aunt's sent this to me because they obviously don't know me very well. Seriously...if you're such a great guy with such a great way for people to live, why do you need to scare the ever-loving shit out of them with stuff like this? I mean...that's all I'm saying...

So, I'm back in Bowling Green. My first week back has been pretty crazy. I've turned into an emotional nutjob. I spent the first 4 days I was here bawling my eyes out wishing I'd never left Richmond and missing Jason. I started back at Toot's and began realizing, yet again, why I was so happy to leave that place 6 months ago. lol. I got to drive back to Richmond to visit Jason and Erin, and was SO.FREAKING.HAPPY. about it. :) And, now, I think I'm feeling much better.

Living alone is weird. It's quiet and scary and lonely. I'm hoping my attitude toward my new living situation will change with time, but I'm afraid that it won't and that I'll be miserable for the entire year. Surely not, right?

Ariel loves this new place. Lots of places to sneak around in and play on. However, she does not like that I am the only human in the house. When I get home from work, she crawls all freakin' over me until I just can't stand it anymore, and purrs so loudly that I think her purr-box is going to vibrate right out of her throat!

I think I'm going to get out of the house tonight. My friends from work invited me to the bar I don't like. Corey's been...he knows. haha! I thought I might go just to keep from being sad in this house by myself again tonight. Actually, yeah, I'm gonna go. No more Tyann, the hermit!!

I realized about a week ago that I left a bunch of stuff in the attic at That 70s House. Halloween and Christmas stuff... But, I wanted to put up some lights and stuff, so yesterday I went to the store and bought some awesome blue lights and an itty bitty silver tree and decorated! It's all blue and glowy in the house now! :) Here are some pictures!

( Pictures! )

This coming Monday, November 20th, at 8PM (EST), the EKU Concert Choir and Symphony Orchestra will be performing Mozart's "Requiem." If anyone should want to come and watch, it's going to be in the Coates Building in Brock Auditorium. I'm singing in the choir, so you should defnitely be there! :) Plus, the music is awesome! Hope to see you there!

P.S. If you haven't seen it, rent Amadeus. It's not particularly accurate, but it's a good movie anyway. :)

OMG! OMG! OMG!

The Democrats are taking over BOTH the House of Representatives AND the Senate!! Is America finally going to make some real changes?? Does this mean that we're ready to have a woman as President in 2008?!? I could be reading way too much into these midterm elections, but I'm excited!!! :D Woot!

I got this in an email today and DIED!

I think I've decided to move back to Bowling Green in December. The decision has been staring me in the face ever since I thought that maybe moving back was even an option. Now I know it's the best option for me. And, I'm not happy with it. It makes me cry every time I think about leaving here, but I know myself too well. I know that if I stay here, I will not finish school. I won't go to class, and I won't finish. I hate that about myself, but it's true. I'm not motivated here. At Western I know I only have one full-time semester and one part-time semester plus an internship left. That's it. I'll be done in 2 semesters and then I can move back here.

( But... )

So, yeah...I'm feeling a litte down-in-the-dumps.

I want to know how to make an icon from a .gif. Anybody want to help me? This is the picture...



I saw it and the first thing I thought of was Elisa and those cute little faces she drew on those grapes that one time! haha *sigh* I miss her. Anyway, I think this would be an awesome icon if I could figure out how to make it! :)

I'm proud of myself today. I actually went to my first 2 classes. I haven't done that in about a week and a half. So, good for me.

On a less positive note, I'm really pissed about this letter I got. I've been a member of Naral Pro-Choice America for several years now, and I've been sending letters to my congressmen and senators for as long as I've been a member. They are always letters about pro-choice bills or not passing an anti-choice law or something. Well, Ron Lewis always sends a letter back to me telling me how he 'understands my opinion, but continues to support a pro-life view.' Blah, blah, blah. Today I got this letter...

( Dear Ms. Porche: )

Did anybody else get this letter on accident? I figure I can't be the only one! There's just no way. Maybe he's just fucking with me? I don't know... And besides, who the fuck came up with this Act?! It's absolutely ridiculous. Why should kids have to run to their parents to tell them they are young and want an abortion? Don't people understand the consequences of this Act? I know there are a lot of parents that would disown their daughter if they heard they were under 18 and pregnant and *gasp* wanting an abortion! I hate our government.

This is President Bush's sex education quiz.

See if you pass.

So, I moved to Richmond to be with Jason, and now I feel totally lost. Let me start off just saying that I hate, hate EKU. I miss Western...a lot. I miss my friends and my job and the comfort I had in Bowling Green. But mostly, I just miss WKU.

I've been thinking a lot about this, and I really don't know what to do. I want to transfer back to Western, but I know that is going to be a huge hassle. I will have to move BACK to Bowling Green, and moving is such a pain. I'll have to leave Jason while I finish school, and I'll have to pay for a new apartment and everything. I want to be with him, but I just don't think I can handle all of this. It seems that either way I choose, I'm going to be unhappy -- if I stay here, I'll hate being at EKU, but if I move away, I'll hate being away from Jason.

I talked to Jason about this last weekend and he told me that he knew I wasn't happy here and that if I wanted to move back to Bowling Green, that he would be here for me when I finished school in a year or so. But, I'm just not so sure. I talked to Erin about it, too, and she said that she has been wanting to move back to BG, too and that if I wanted a roommate to let her know. That helps...takes some of the financial burden off of me, but can I live with Erin? She's pretty crazy. My mom (yeah, I actually asked my mom for advice...) told me to "follow my heart." Yeah...that's a huge help.

I just don't think I can finish school here. I really don't - I hate it that much. But, I hate the idea of leaving Jason for a year just as much as I hate EKU. *sigh* I'm so confused.